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Fire of Life

Posted on Sep 3rd, 2009 by Nicole : wakingdreamer Nicole
Forest Flowers

fire
burns in my veins

each sound
picture
thought
touches me deeply

tears are never far

it has been long
since I have been so alive

joyful

content

excited to see what each day brings

Praise! Glory to the One
Who makes all things new

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More trips, more Gaia meets! Vancouver and Nashville

Posted on Sep 13th, 2009 by Nicole : wakingdreamer Nicole
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(this is a picture of me enhanced by boogie :) )

It was lovely meeting Darrell - Moneynot - and his wife when I was in Dayton, Ohio, last weekend with my friend, and I am 
very much looking for to meeting my Ontario friends this coming weekend in Brampton

So, now I am having fun planning two other Gaia meets. The first one will be in Vancouver, Canada, either on Friday November 20 or Saturday November 21 (or both! lol) and the second in Nashville sometime in December.

I am hoping to see andrew and Zoey  again, and possibly Terrill  and arpita  for the first time, at the Vancouver meeting(s).

And maybe other people? Who knows?

In Nashville, looking forward to seeing  Zennie and starlight as well as, all going well, boogie and  Hal and maybe others too!

Life is so interesting these days...

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What I was doing this time last year, or celebrating 3 yrs on ZG!

Posted on Sep 14th, 2009 by Nicole : wakingdreamer Nicole
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I saw today's Q and R and really didn't remember what I was doing last year this time, so went to my September 2008 blogs and remembered - 

Turning this many! (waving 2 fingers)


September 14, 2008 was the day during my prolonged celebration of being 2 years old on ZaadzNowGaia when my dear friend willowinthewind (Jeannie) said this:

"Yes yesyesyes sister-in-heart!  This community as a whole and all the smaller circles of community are a profound source of inspiration to me too!  I am stretched pulled expanded, don't even recognize my own bone structure so much anymore, because of the wondrous inspiration of YOU and everyone here.  Wow.  Deep bows.  Peace.  And oceans of love!"

There is a tenderness in me thinking of Jeannie always these days because what she has been going through in companioning her mother dying... How beautifully and lovingly she is doing it...

So, last year I summed up the first two years on ZNG - what has happened this year?

Well, last fall I attempted to reintegrate into my church community, and failed. So I kept busy with work and association matters, and eventually went to Japan in December - see  Impressions of Japan, or Kaleidoscope (edit one)


after which I fell into my usual seasonal affective disorder slump and only blogged three times until June - about coming back again and again to the same dream, about the death of our beloved cat Splat, and about the first anniversary of the God Pod.

I started to get busy again with association work in April with a Toronto meeting (this was one of the only times I have traveled recently without even attempting a Gaia meetup, which reflects the inward mode I was still in), but it took me a while to get truly into gear. 

My next blog was Birthday Joy!

But it wasn't until late June and the breaking off for the last time with my ex-partner that I began to feel truly alive and powerful again. You can see this in the July, August and September blogs, where I am writing poetry again, passionately living music and in the midst of Gaia meets in New Jersey, Dayton and Toronto (planning Vancouver and Nashville in November and December), association work and lots and lots of contact with friends.

Life is so very very very good. 

The image used is from the Virgin Islands, where I plan to go on a company-sponsored retreat in late April-early May... many many exciting plans!

Love to you all!
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Gaia Meet Up At Amy's In Brampton (Toronto)!

Posted on Sep 26th, 2009 by Nicole : wakingdreamer Nicole
It is hard to believe that it has been a week since I drove to Brampton to see Amy and everyone. So much has happened since, so in a sense it feels like much longer. 

But at the same time, I have been longing to blog about it for all this time, so it seems amazing it took me this long. But it has been crazy busy so I just couldn't get to it earlier.

So, first of all, I tend to get lost in and around Toronto. The drive there in my new old 2005 Toyota Echo, just acquired a few days before, looking much like this:

toyota echo

was uneventful, but somehow I forgot that last time I used Google maps for directions, I ran afoul of a limitation - it doesn't tell you which way to turn at certain exits. So once having exited the 401, I wandered around, asking directions at the gas station etc. Showed up at Amy's feeling rather frazzled, but graciously greeted by her, her husband and dear Rita and her Barnie.

Rita!

(above photo taken by Amy's son, Darwin)

And the fun began. :)

We sat around in the living room talking and talking. It is always so lovely the way that one meets Gaians for the first time and just skips over the preliminaries, moving straight to the good conversations. Amy had lots of delicious snacks and goodies to munch on, and a beautiful and very welcoming house. I settled into the cosy couch, nibbled and talked and enjoyed the pleasure of just being there.

(Photos below were taken by Amy and Rita)

living room

(myself and Sheila on the couch, Amy's hubby Ray in the foreground)

gaia gorgeous

(left to right: Liza, Rita and Amy)

As the afternoon wore on, others came to join us: Robert and Liza and Sheila. At first, the guys were hanging out together outside while the women, out of consideration for my sensitivity to the cool weather (wasn't that bad but being a tropical flower, I tend to gravitate strongly to the warm :) ), sat around the living room and got to know each other.

more gaia gorls

(left to right: Liza, myself, Rita and Sheila)

We also got to meet Amy's two children, her daughter ever so briefly but her son for more time. Last time I had met Amy, last summer, we had gotten together at a restaurant in Toronto, so it was a great joy for me to see her in her natural element. Everything about her spoke of her pleasure in her home, her family and extending hospitality to us. She is truly the hostess with the mostest :)

Eventually the guys started to migrate inside, and at one point all six of us Gaians found ourself sitting around, being skilfully led by Robert in a spontaneous sharing exercise about how we first found Gaia. Fascinating to hear the very different stories from each person there.

posing moment


(Amy, Liza and Robert)

We had originally planned to go out to a restaurant but we were so comfy at the house that we clamoured to order in, and accordingly just at the right time delicious Indian/Chinese dishes arrived apparently by magic :) and we sat around the dining room table and the adjacent sitting room digging in. 

dinner again


(in this picture above, we see Rita's hubby, Barnie, at the far right)
first supper


One of the conversations that impressed me the most was a discussion between Rita and Robert about the inner abyss, the endlessness of the spiritual journey.  Robert brought up the experience of Elie Wiesel and his account of his experience with the Holocaust in the book Night

Six hours after I arrived, people began gently to drift out the door, one by one. Time is such an amazingly fluid thing, none of us could believe how quickly the day had gone. 

rob and nic


I felt strongly that this was not the end but the beginning (or in the case of Amy, continuation) of several face to face friendships that would be deeply significant in my life.   


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