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November 2009 
Finding My True Love At Last
Posted on Oct 2nd, 2009
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Nicole
Nicole
I have been so busy living the joy of being deeply in love with a wonderful, wonderful person that it only just hit me this minute that I have not yet blogged about this very significant turning point in my life.
The first thing I want to say about it is how totally different this love is from other loves I have experienced. I was always the one who pursued, and planned and organised, from the beginning to the end. Though that never worked out, I continued compulsively to carry out this unproductive approach.
This time, I asked the Universe to help me let go of this tendency in me. I opened my heart and my hands and asked simply for the grace to be found by my true love, whoever he might be. I did not make a long shopping list of what I wanted and what I didn`t want. I knew that whoever found me in the natural Universal way would be exactly the right person, at last.
So, what happened was this. I was going to Toronto on business and wanted to get together with Amy while there. Amy invited her friend Liza, then we invited Carole, Tom and Brock (who couldn`t come), and Sheila and Rita (who did come).
Robert (whom you all know as Just Me here on Gaia) saw that all this planning was going on, and asked to join us. Of course we were delighted, the more the merrier, though I didn`t know much about him. I had seen some of his comments and thought that he seemed wise, but he was a mystery to me.
During our get-together, Robert and I did talk for a bit, but we mostly talked to other people. To be honest, his self-composure and self-contained manner led to my assumption he was married, so without even being conscious of it, I automatically held him at arms` length, polite and kind but not too warm.
The next few days were intensely busy for me with work commitments but in between of course I was eager to connect with those I had just met, Amy, Rita, Sheila, and... when I got to Robert, I felt a bit puzzled. I realised that I had not heard him say anything about his family. So I emailed him and asked, and from his reply realised he was no longer married, and had been through a lot. We exchanged a few emails and then on Friday he called me and we spoke for nearly seven hours and as they say - the rest is history.
In all our long conversations on the phone, in the exchange of emails with heartsharings and poems and music we love, we have grown closer together than seems humanly possible in such a short time.
I am experiencing profound gratitude and joy and wonder about it all.
Only 14 days to go before he arrives here for the weekend! Soon I will be counting the hours :)
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Oh! My! God! This is the most wonderful, sweetest, news ever…..and to think the sparks started at my home….wow….I am so kissing my house all over again tonight…..oh wow and wow. Totally awesome. Totally kool. *Amy does the lottery dance*.
Oh Nic, I wished I can hug u both….congrats for finding each other…omg….I will be in open mouth awe for a long time.
Hugs. Thanks for sharing this happy news.
All smiles for you.
Amy :)
I should have known you would be the first to come by with your sunshine and love and beauty, my dear Amy. Yes, please kiss your house all over again. I shall always love that house, that place where we met for the first time. Totally, totally!
You are hugging us both, dear, and I promise, we will come by to see you as soon as possible, next time I am in that area - hopefully November.
I don`t feel like I can take any of the credit for finding him. I was found and it was all arranged perfectly by the Universe, most blessed may it be forever!
Love, love, love
Nicole …. I rejoice in your joy….
I loved what you said.. I opened my heart and my hands and asked simply for the grace to be found by my true love, whoever he might be. I did not make a long shopping list of what I wanted and what I didn`t want. I knew that whoever found me in the natural Universal way would be exactly the right person, at last…
So precious…so delightful.
Since I'm a bit in a french mood since I'm going to the Riviera on Monday here a nice version of a classic love song. Enjoy!
Oh…I'm such a hopeless romantic….I certainly wish Love would find me this way.
Amy: may be I should pay you a visit as well my dear Goddess!
Dear sweet Lucienne, thank you so much for your joy, it adds to my own. La vie en Rose, superbe, mon amie! I wish for you for Love to find you, and if you visit the Goddess` shrine to petition, let me know, so that I may come to give you a hug and see you in person. :) I don`t see my travels bringing me to Amsterdam anytime soon…
Lucienne…me too! *giggling…
may we all freefall-into-love at Amy's house!
beautiful expression Nicole…love and joy*
sweet starlight, I have a feeling that you will not need any pixie dust from Amy`s house! Don`t ask me why, I just feel that love will find you. I am so looking forward to sharing with you in person when I get to Nashville. Even if Robert can`t come in person to see you all there, I will carry him in my heart, as I do wherever I go.
With much love and appreciation for you and for your recent love blogs that are so very meaningful to me!
wishing you both joy, love. Glad to have a name to the beautiful Journaling in Meeting Love !
hugs
Lol, Star and Lucienne. *giggling too* But oh, it would be lovely if you gals can come to my house, trust me, true love shall follow u too. (er…um…note to self: invite all the hot, good-looking dudes on gaia as well) lol. U gals rock.
And oh, thanks Nic for your lovely words. And oh, yes, that would be lovely to see you both when u come by in November…….
PS: Loving that new icon pic of you, Lucienne…u look like a lovely greek goddess from over here…
Now we're all saying “should have gone to Amy's house, should have gone to Amy's House of Love!” But seriously. Hugs and more hugs dear Nicole for your heart so filled with love that its zinging like sparklers or fireworks. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. As your love opens our own hearts even more… Blessings, dear one!
Anna, thank you, it has been wonderful traveling with you and Gien at Meeting Love! Big hugs!
Amy, LOLOL! You are so so funny! and I agree about Lucienne looking like a Greek goddess. Lucienne you are lovely!
Congratulations my dear friend :) May the Universe bless and support your bliss in every way!
*Deep Joy*
Mercale
Kathy, my dear one, sparklers, fireworks, yes yes yes! Everything is celebration and festival. I am glad that our love is opening your hearts and I am deeply deeply blessed. Every day. In fact, I am on the phone with him now so feeling especially happy.
thank you, thank you, Mercale! The Universe has set this up and is blessing and supported and blissing us in every way. Yes yes yes! Such deep joy.
Hello Amy, I'm thinking you could get a big sign neon outside YOUR HOUSE and call it
“AMY's LOOOOOOVE PORTAL”
Thank you for all the hot stuff at your home.
=}
J.M.
ROTFLOL!! Loving you, my sweet love…
Again and again, however we know the landscape of love
and the little churchyard there, with its sorrowing names,
and the frighteningly silent abyss into which the others
fall: again and again the two of us walk out together
under the ancient trees, lie down again and again
among the flowers, face to face with the sky.
Translated by Stephen Mitchell
Rainer Maria Rilke
oh nicole, no worries on the short amount of time. that is how me and my beloved started out :) our connection was instantaneous.. like we knew eachother for years already. that is how much in common we had and still do have. we're so similar yet have enough differences that we can love one another as a couple. i am so blessed to have him in my life.. he is the most amazing, wonderful man i've ever met, and i love him so greatly.. i loved him from the beginning, and through the break up.. he didn't want me, but i still loved him so very much. my heart never stopped loving him. i only loved him more. i felt like the gods had damned me. but.. something happened in him.. and.. he wanted to try again. and now we are happier than ever. it's funny.. we worry over each other, help one another with work, are always there for one another.. it's cute, and i love it, and i love him.. unconditionally love him!
That is so wonderful, Suni! The two of you are truly blessed. Hugs!
Nicole, Robert, such wonderful news! Giving you both a great big virtual hug…and happily amazed at this interplay of meeting online and offline. I am so very happy I can't tell you.
Gia, it is always a great joy to share amore with you, carissima, bellissima!
Meenakshi, giving you a great big virtual hug and if anything even more happily amazed at what has happened in the past two very eventual weeks.
Much love to you both!
What a story! I mean really! This sounds like a fairy tale, enchanted castle and all. Fairy God Mother, handsome prince, lovely lady, all the elements. JM, please write a story? I mean, you know, if you have the time.
Stories I write, this I live and give from my heart to her's always
hey, hey, don't go making her feel all important and stuff that's my gift, notice it is not a job, but go ahead she deserves more than I will ever be able to.
=}
Lol, Sandi.
That Enchanted castle sounds suspiciously like mine but its sure lacking a fairygodmother….so it must be the universe who put this one together….and something to the effect of what Gia wrote :)
(Groan) Handsome Prince, Rob, I see you will never let me forget about the spicy food I ordered while totally high on wine. lol.
And hey great idea, I am tempted to post a big neon sign outside my ENCHANTED CASTLE with the words :- “When Rob met Nic in there, hot stuff were on the menu.” rotfl
Love u two lovebirds and all your wonderful friends. Here is some disney love for you. *rolls eyes* Of course, its very “girly” lovedy dovedy stuff.
somehow i wasn`t getting the notifications for all these goings on! lol
sandi, you dear, i do have to admit that i feel like i am in the middle of a fairy tale. but it is real! a real prince, and castle and fairy godmother lol
beloved, you know what i am going to say to that! i am living in pure grace, far beyond anything i deserve, and loving every minute.
amy, there there, no one is mentioning how inebriated you were lol
i do hope that neon sign is up by the time we have the luau
and thanks for the disney love - we are both hopeless romantics, but i am sure no one needs to be told that around here!
A moment of happiness,
you and I sitting on the verandah,
apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.
We feel the flowing water of life here,
you and I, with the garden's beauty and the birds singing.
The stars will be watching us,
and we will show them
what it is to be a thin crescent moon.
You and I unselfed, will be together,
indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.
The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar
as we laugh together, you and I.
In one form upon this earth,
and in another form in a timeless sweet land.
Rumi - Kulliyat-e Shams, 2114
Dearest Eli, what a precious gift this is! Huge hugs, my wise kind friend.
WOW! I am so happy for you! :)
Words fail me right now. I will simply say this…
I am elated for you Nicole. You deserve the world and this gentleman will undoubtedly create a new world for and with you. Namaste, dear fledgling lovers. So happy for your nest to grow in honoring, deepening, mutual love.
Kundan, it is so sweet of you to drop by my blog. Thank you!
Paul, I really appreciate your well wishes. Wishing you both all the same happiness.
Hello there my sweet dear friend, bet you thought I'd forgotten about you 2 huh. Your candor is so refreshing Nicole. I can't remember when I have read anything so sweet. To talk on the phone for seven hours after just meeting……WOW!
Amy, you are sooo funny…..”kissing all around the house”….lol.
Robert and Nicole, you make such an adorable couple. You bring a warmth to my heart and put a smile on my face, and could not be happier for you both<3
Warm hugs to you Nic' and Rob
Bless
Well now then it must be offical.
=}
Rita, you sweet dear, I know that you haven't forgotten about us one bit! Thanks for thinking we are adorable - I certainly agree with you about Robert!
Beloved, yes, it must be :):)
Lol, Rita, now u have me chuckling at myself for kissing my house into surprised smiles. Poor house, never been kissed b4 by me.
Oh, um, right, Nic……I've asked all the fairygodmothers of the land to transform some old signs into a huge neon one in time for our spring luau….hoorah, pina colada here I come…oh..right…shush me, me, me, no need to mention how inebriated…ever so slightly I might get. :)
Anyway, this is my last tweet for the night. Good nite everyone…sweet dreams…and beautiful golden reality….too.
Love u all.
Amy, well, there is a first time for everything, they say, even house-kissing apparently lol!
Thanks for petitioning the fairy godmothers about the neon sign… that will be very helpful :) and sssshhh we won't tell anyone how “allume” you will get (as we say here in Quebec)
hope you had a good night! It was a great weekend, really, now only 11 days to go! Woot!
hey there Sandi a story, mmmm I'll give it some thought thanks.
J.M.
ah Eli my friend, by your grace do I shine.
Thank you
J.M.
you shine, corazon, you shine so brightly, you are my light.
oh! i found a free download of Many Dimensions by Charles Williams just now… if you like, I will email it to you.
this is a part near the end…
But as, in the passion of her
intercession, she raised her hands and bent her head as if to carry the Stone into her breast and brood above it
there, his gaze slid along those arms to her form, and took in not only that but the open window and the sky
beyond.
He looked out, and in the sky itself there was a change. There was movement between him and the heavens;
the chimneys and clouds and sky took on the appearance of the Stone. He was looking into it, and the world
was there, continents and cities, seas and their ships. The Stone was not these, yet these were the Stone—only
there was movement within and beyond them, and from a point infinitely far a continual vibration mingled
itself with the myriad actions of men. And then, in the foreground of that vastidity, he saw rising the Types of
the Stone, here and again there appearing and through all those mingled colours rushing swiftly together.
Loosed from their cells and solitudes upon earth, living suddenly in conjoining motion, closing within
themselves the separation which men had worked on them, those images grew into each other and were again
made one. For a moment he saw the Unity of the Stone at a great distance within the Stone which was the
world, and then the farther Mystery was lost in the nearer. Colour and darkness were a great background for
her where she stood; they concentrated themselves upon her; through her they poured into the Stone upon her
hands, and behind her again appeared but the sky and the houses of a London street.
The Hajji's voice called: “Blessed be the Merciful, the Compassionate! blessed!” and he got to his knees,
immediately afterwards prostrating himself towards the window, the East, and Mecca. Moved by the action
and by some memory of churches and childhood, Oliver also knelt down; so that of all those in the room only
the figure of Lord Arglay remained still upright and vigilant before her as the great change went on.
The strength of the appeal within her faded; it had achieved itself and she was hastened to what remained in
her will. She became conscious of the movement of her hands and her head, and stayed them, for they seemed
to suggest, however slightly, a removal and possession of the Stone. Her hands went a little from her, the
Stone exposed upon them; they lifted a little also, and her head was raised and thrown back. But still her eyes
were upon it, and her will abolished itself before its own. Where before she had prayed “Do or do not,” now
she did not even pray. Her thought and her feeling passed out of her knowledge; she was the Path and there
was process within her, and that was enough…
As all had flowed in, so now all began to flow out, out from the Stone, out into the hands that held it, out
along the arms and into the body and shape of which they were part. Through the clothes that veiled it he saw
that body receiving the likeness of the Stone. Translucency entered it, and through and in the limbs the
darkness which was the Tetragrammaton moved and hid and revealed. He saw the Mystery upon her hands
melting into them; it was flowing away, gently but very surely; it lessened in size and intensity as he watched…