I have been so busy living the joy of being deeply in love with a wonderful, wonderful person that it only just hit me this minute that I have not yet blogged about this very significant turning point in my life.
The first thing I want to say about it is how totally different this love is from other loves I have experienced. I was always the one who pursued, and planned and organised, from the beginning to the end. Though that never worked out, I continued compulsively to carry out this unproductive approach.
This time, I asked the Universe to help me let go of this tendency in me. I opened my heart and my hands and asked simply for the grace to be found by my true love, whoever he might be. I did not make a long shopping list of what I wanted and what I didn`t want. I knew that whoever found me in the natural Universal way would be exactly the right person, at last.
So, what happened was this. I was going to Toronto on business and wanted to get together with Amy while there. Amy invited her friend Liza, then we invited Carole, Tom and Brock (who couldn`t come), and Sheila and Rita (who did come).
Robert (whom you all know as Just Me here on Gaia) saw that all this planning was going on, and asked to join us. Of course we were delighted, the more the merrier, though I didn`t know much about him. I had seen some of his comments and thought that he seemed wise, but he was a mystery to me.
During our get-together, Robert and I did talk for a bit, but we mostly talked to other people. To be honest, his self-composure and self-contained manner led to my assumption he was married, so without even being conscious of it, I automatically held him at arms` length, polite and kind but not too warm.
The next few days were intensely busy for me with work commitments but in between of course I was eager to connect with those I had just met, Amy, Rita, Sheila, and... when I got to Robert, I felt a bit puzzled. I realised that I had not heard him say anything about his family. So I emailed him and asked, and from his reply realised he was no longer married, and had been through a lot. We exchanged a few emails and then on Friday he called me and we spoke for nearly seven hours and as they say - the rest is history.
In all our long conversations on the phone, in the exchange of emails with heartsharings and poems and music we love, we have grown closer together than seems humanly possible in such a short time.
I am experiencing profound gratitude and joy and wonder about it all.
Only 14 days to go before he arrives here for the weekend! Soon I will be counting the hours :)